blog New Life : Maddy Date Two and Other Affairs

New Life : Maddy Date Two and Other Affairs

*cover image originally posted here 12.5.19 12:09AM : Apartment, NYC Here I am. Back in the city. A stranger again in a foreign place. I am reminding myself which streets go where. A layer is immediately put on; the layer of effort, of cool. Even taking my recycling down requires additional thought – am I …

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blog On Marriage : Working Together

On Marriage : Working Together

Alexis had always been interested in photography. She took a class in college and her teacher thought she had an eye. She keeps the photos from her class trip to Italy on her desktop like a family heirloom she can reference as a reminder that she is good and she is talented.  I had always …

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blog New Life : Erica 3rd Date

New Life : Erica 3rd Date

“Waittt, how long are you gone for? You leave Sunday?” Erica texts me after driving away in her Uber. “I need a redo on that goodbye,” I respond. I didn’t get to kiss her. It was rushed and not how I wanted it.  “When can you say goodbye again?”  “I leave Sunday morning.” Thumbs down. …

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blog On Marriage : The Last Days Part 1

On Marriage : The Last Days Part 1

Less crying today. After you recite the lines so many times they begin to lose the effect. I called Jenny. Alexis called Rachel. I texted Greg. She talked to her friends in LA. Everyone is sad. No one is shocked. It ended fast. But then again, it started that way.  I do think about how …

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blog On Marriage : The Beginning Part 4

On Marriage : The Beginning Part 4

11/4/14 2:42pm At lulu. Alexis just returned my pants. Now I have $1400 on my gift card. Every year they gave me a $2500 to make sure whenever I was teaching or speaking I was wearing their gear.  Everyone there was happy to see me. They always were. Telling me how awesome I was. Part …

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blog New Life : Meet Maddy

New Life : Meet Maddy

*feature images originally from smudge.com Maddy walked in like she was filming a scene for Charlie’s Angels. Her wavy ginger blonde hair danced around her face as she glided towards me.  I smiled. I always smile. But this time it was real. Because she was pretty. Oh so pretty.  Of course, that cannot be enough. …

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blog On Marriage : European Vacation Part 2

On Marriage : European Vacation Part 2

The fireworks started at midnight. We were walking the NYE trail in Vienna drinking mulled wine out of mushroom mugs. It was cozy and I was feeling festive. I learned that mulled wine was not, however, very good. Just a few months before I had my first drink in years – a Guinness in Ireland. …

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blog On Marriage : The Beginning Part 3

On Marriage : The Beginning Part 3

*italicized font pulled directly from journals Wednesday 10/22/14 7:34PM I woke up this morning not thinking about the girl who had occupied my life for the last 2 years but the young, spirited one who had taken me by storm. I got to Jenny’s around 6PM last night and hung out on her front steps …

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blog New Life : Erica 2nd Date

New Life : Erica 2nd Date

There is a certain nostalgia attached to every flight. I’ve always felt sleepy as soon as I’ve gotten to airports. Like I could finally relax and just be me for a few. I’m flying back to San Diego after getting situated in my new apartment in the East Village. I spent much of the afternoon …

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blog On Marriage : The Beginning Part 2

On Marriage : The Beginning Part 2

*feature image of my old office where we worked sometimes *italicized bits are direct pulls from my journals Sunday 10/19/14 11:11PM Alexis and I were listening to music on the drive home. I wanted her to hear Snow in Newark. It made me think of her. The words, the energy. It was so intense but …

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