blog Everything Is Not Mine

Everything Is Not Mine

*photo from Naked Apartments I’m in New York this week. I come every year to see Jenny and to get rejuvenated by the energy. San Diego is to easy as New York is to alive. But this year is a little different. I used to be excited about the new developments in Williamsburg – all …

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blog The Writer or The Businessman

The Writer or The Businessman

It’s hard to get out of bed when it’s cold. Now, folks in Michigan might hear me say ‘cold’ and roll their eyes. Fair. But you must understand, we don’t have heat in old homes in San Diego so when it’s 50 degrees outside at night it’s also 50 degrees in our apartment. Under the …

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blog How Much Does It Cost To Feel Like Your Life Is A Good One ?

How Much Does It Cost To Feel Like Your Life Is A Good One ?

I’m sitting on the Soto chair in the living room, the chair Alexis fought to the death to earn us at the Joybird Scratch and Dent warehouse sale. Woody is laying on the rug, chewing his bone like a sweet little prince. Alexis is on the couch, anchoring our triangle, practicing her acoustic guitar. She …

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blog Broke My Back, Wrote A Book

Broke My Back, Wrote A Book

It’s been thirty-four days since my last workout. I had an idea that I was going to get hurt soon. My back ached above my kidney, or maybe it was my actual kidney. It happened when I went too hard for too long, tightness and pain to the touch. But if I’ve learned anything from …

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blog Not Bloody Sundays

Not Bloody Sundays

Sunday is typically a day of rest (thanks religion) and as such it is the lazy, wasted day we spend loafing around waiting for the brick machine of Monday to come and crush us. The less we actually do the slower the time may pass. The last couple weeks we’ve had Sundays off and a …

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blog It’s Normal For Things To Feel Old

It’s Normal For Things To Feel Old

It’s hard to believe that I can spend so much time thinking about how to be happy without actually being happy. We’re in therapy right now. I guess this comes with the necessary bout of defensiveness. Dealing with the assumptions running around in people’s heads about what could be wrong with us. I suppose there …

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uncategorized Routines Are Just More Things You Have To Do

Routines Are Just More Things You Have To Do

I do my best to get into routines. Meditation, exercise, waking at 6, drinking tea, stretching before bed, and making sure to always cross everything off my to-do list. This usually lasts about 5-8 days before the routine itself starts to feel like more things I have to do. At which time I lose motivation …

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blog On Marriage : Two Years of Sometimes Perfect and Often Difficult

On Marriage : Two Years of Sometimes Perfect and Often Difficult

Alexis and I have gone on some amazing trips in our two years together. Hong Kong, Amsterdam, Paris, Columbia, Seattle, Portland, SF, Barcelona, and Cambodia. There might be more but I started to feel boastful. You can’t do anything without someone thinking something about it. That is why your intent is the only thing that …

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blog The Mask I Wear

The Mask I Wear

I’ve got my new office setup. While Alexis was in LA for a dance workshop I redid the apartment. And filmed a commercial. And ran three photoshoots. And made Christmas lists. And ate like shit. And didn’t do any of the things that make me a happy person. I got hungry and then just didn’t …

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blog Thank You Colleen : Day 5

Thank You Colleen : Day 5

– This old man is sitting in the corner staring at me. I think he wants to come sit at my table. I also think he might want to fight me. He just got up and walked past me and said hello. Three minutes later he walked back in and says hi to me like …

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