blog On Dating : Then and Now

On Dating : Then and Now

April, 2020. Early Covid Cont’d. Maddy and I have been here together in my apartment in San Diego for over a month. She was getting anxious that I was getting sick of her and would eventually ask her to leave. She said it made her want to leave first to avoid the mess of it.  …

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Everything Because of Fear

It’s easy to think I’m making progress. Ten years ago I would fight with my girlfriend just to feel excitement.  But the biggest shift is still in front of me. I’ve only just started and it’s already occupying all that I am.  There are a number of reasons that lead someone to success. I have, …

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uncategorized On Dating : Normal Days

On Dating : Normal Days

I’ve been working out of the back office. Maddy at the dining table in the living room.  In little moments, I notice it slip away. I used to cling to the images I have of her on my phone. Obsess over the beauty and importance of her sending me a pic from her desk at …

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500 Words A Day On Dating : You Could Come With Me

On Dating : You Could Come With Me

3.24.20 Bed, NYC We wake together and smile before we touch because we know the feeling that is coming. Last night we thanked each other for how much fun we’ve been having. She said she never feels dumb when she talks to me. I said I never worry about being right in a conversation. We …

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On Dating : Last Days in New York

3.22.20 8:40AM Bed, NYC We cannot remember the second thing we needed from the grocery store. The first is cottage cheese. That’s easy because we always need more cottage cheese. Is it turkey? No. Bread? No. Arugula? No. Goddamn, what was it? We go back and forth and I’ve conceded to the fact that it’s …

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On Life : The Energy Lady

February, 2020 Amy is here. She’s staying in my house so she can work on my system.  Maddy thinks she’s cooked up quite a life – charging thousands of dollars to clear energy out of rich, stupid Californians.  I would normally agree.  I didn’t want her at my house. But nothing else was working. I …

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The Case for Being Single

98% of my life is good. Favorable. Rich. Meaningful. 2% is not. I used to think about that 2% 98% of the time. A lot of people do this. It’s insane.  I bought a house in October. I never wanted a house. I think it was part of the continuation in my work with Amy. …

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On Dating : Quarantine

3.14.20 I am coming home from Seattle when they announce that the world is shutting down. People are dying and this new virus is taking down anyone it can. I am scared, and at the same time, I am not. My work closes. It has to. I have no way to make money and $50k/month …

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On Dating : You Can Only Change One Thing

Early March, 2020 My apartment is dark and the screen is bright and I feel like we are all becoming less human somehow. It appears Joe Biden is ahead of Bernie Sanders in the primaries. It feels like a scam. We can all feel it. No way they were going to take it from Bernie …

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On Marriage : Organizing the Closets

There isn’t a playbook for how to take care of yourself after you’ve upended your entire life. I wish there was something. To really make sure you’re okay. – Saturday I’m at the beach right now. Well, on a bluff above the beach so I don’t have to touch the sand. Law Street. It’s from …

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