uncategorized Routines Are Just More Things You Have To Do

Routines Are Just More Things You Have To Do

I do my best to get into routines. Meditation, exercise, waking at 6, drinking tea, stretching before bed, and making sure to always cross everything off my to-do list. This usually lasts about 5-8 days before the routine itself starts to feel like more things I have to do. At which time I lose motivation …

Read Article Read More

blog On Marriage : Two Years of Sometimes Perfect and Often Difficult

On Marriage : Two Years of Sometimes Perfect and Often Difficult

Alexis and I have gone on some amazing trips in our two years together. Hong Kong, Amsterdam, Paris, Columbia, Seattle, Portland, SF, Barcelona, and Cambodia. There might be more but I started to feel boastful. You can’t do anything without someone thinking something about it. That is why your intent is the only thing that …

Read Article Read More

blog The Mask I Wear

The Mask I Wear

I’ve got my new office setup. While Alexis was in LA for a dance workshop I redid the apartment. And filmed a commercial. And ran three photoshoots. And made Christmas lists. And ate like shit. And didn’t do any of the things that make me a happy person. I got hungry and then just didn’t …

Read Article Read More

blog Thank You Colleen : Day 5

Thank You Colleen : Day 5

– This old man is sitting in the corner staring at me. I think he wants to come sit at my table. I also think he might want to fight me. He just got up and walked past me and said hello. Three minutes later he walked back in and says hi to me like …

Read Article Read More

blog Native American Spirits : Day 4

Native American Spirits : Day 4

SUN 7.30.17 6:45am I was at a restaurant with Seeds people and they were going to screen my trailer then someone ordered the wrong thing and we all had to run out. Prior to that the hostess took forever to seat us and I was very upset. Two Asian girls just walked in and sat …

Read Article Read More

blog Gas Station Chicken : Day 3

Gas Station Chicken : Day 3

SAT 7.29.17 Self-esteem always improves when you share your reality with someone. – Colleen DeRango 5:06pm I’m eating frozen chicken, mashed potatoes, and corn from a gas station for dinner. The diner is closed and I’ve already exhausted The Dollar General’s grocery aisle. We just got back from a two hour ride where Lance almost …

Read Article Read More

blog The Roof Is Leaking : Day 2

The Roof Is Leaking : Day 2

Friday 7.28.17 7:47am People here have their dogs to bark at people who walk by. They are mostly outside, just animals. Not inside cuddling, eating organic dog food. Showing up on stories in their strange belly-up positions. They have a big bag of Kibble poured into a large trash bin and they get a scoop …

Read Article Read More

blog My Life As A Horseman : Day 1

My Life As A Horseman : Day 1

Thursday 7.27.17 6:45pm I can’t decide if I want to start with the drive or the motel. I guess the motel. I feel homesick. I am in a dark box with a TV from the 80s and a microwave from the 70s. I paid $5 extra/night for this microwave. The desert drive through Arizona was …

Read Article Read More

blog Why You Should NOT Monetize Your Blog

Why You Should NOT Monetize Your Blog

I suppose I should start off by saying that eventually it is okay to monetize your blog. Maybe. I should also note that I can guarantee with 93% certainty that the thing you think is going to be the thing that you write about and make money is probably not really the thing at all. …

Read Article Read More

blog Horse Ladies and a Black Ball of Energy

Horse Ladies and a Black Ball of Energy

I have been seeing Julie for almost eight years. I have a hard time calling her my therapist because I think saying you have a therapist has become trendy. It crosses the line of that character type that is too upfront about their problems where you can detect that it’s a shtick. I tend to …

Read Article Read More