blog On Dating : Last Days in New York

On Dating : Last Days in New York

3.22.20 8:40AM Bed, NYC We cannot remember the second thing we needed from the grocery store. The first is cottage cheese. That’s easy because we always need more cottage cheese. Is it turkey? No. Bread? No. Arugula? No. Goddamn, what was it? We go back and forth and I’ve conceded to the fact that it’s …

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blog On Life : The Energy Lady

On Life : The Energy Lady

February, 2020 Amy is here. She’s staying in my house so she can work on my system.  Maddy thinks she’s cooked up quite a life – charging thousands of dollars to clear energy out of rich, stupid Californians.  I would normally agree.  I didn’t want her at my house. But nothing else was working. I …

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blog The Case for Being Single

The Case for Being Single

98% of my life is good. Favorable. Rich. Meaningful. 2% is not. I used to think about that 2% 98% of the time. A lot of people do this. It’s insane.  I bought a house in October. I never wanted a house. I think it was part of the continuation in my work with Amy. …

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blog On Dating : Quarantine

On Dating : Quarantine

3.14.20 I am coming home from Seattle when they announce that the world is shutting down. People are dying and this new virus is taking down anyone it can. I am scared, and at the same time, I am not. My work closes. It has to. I have no way to make money and $50k/month …

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blog On Dating : You Can Only Change One Thing

On Dating : You Can Only Change One Thing

Early March, 2020 My apartment is dark and the screen is bright and I feel like we are all becoming less human somehow. It appears Joe Biden is ahead of Bernie Sanders in the primaries. It feels like a scam. We can all feel it. No way they were going to take it from Bernie …

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blog On Marriage : Organizing the Closets

On Marriage : Organizing the Closets

There isn’t a playbook for how to take care of yourself after you’ve upended your entire life. I wish there was something. To really make sure you’re okay. – Saturday I’m at the beach right now. Well, on a bluff above the beach so I don’t have to touch the sand. Law Street. It’s from …

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blog On Dating : *Judgment Enters the Chat

On Dating : *Judgment Enters the Chat

I could tell from her voice on the phone that she had been drinking. Maybe a fair amount. She was cheerful at first and later it settled into something more sad. I could hear it as the night went on, an emptiness that came about because the world was not her friend.  She was telling …

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blog On Dating : Making Up

On Dating : Making Up

I was back at Augurs Well last night after walking Maddy to her Lyft. I felt like moving around in the city after such a night and I was drawn to the comforting dive bar like a beacon was flashing right next to the milk stout tap handle.  I like the guy who owns it, …

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blog On Dating : Do You Want to Read What I Write?

On Dating : Do You Want to Read What I Write?

Waking up to a different world than I knew yesterday. When I went to bed all was uncertain but we were still talking so it was uncertain but we were together in it.  Now we are apart because she is taking time to process things and I am left to wonder what any of it …

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blog On Dating : Removing the Discomfort

On Dating : Removing the Discomfort

When Maddy left last night I felt a burning in my chest for her. I wanted (needed) her back and felt my stomach rotating wondering when I’d see her again.  In the past, I would’ve considered that a good thing. Falling for someone. But I realize now that it’s more of a hunger to remove …

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