It’s been thirty-four days since my last workout. I had an idea that I was going to get hurt soon. My back ached above my kidney, or maybe it was my actual kidney. It happened when I went too hard for too long, tightness and pain to the touch. But if I’ve learned anything from …
Sunday is typically a day of rest (thanks religion) and as such it is the lazy, wasted day we spend loafing around waiting for the brick machine of Monday to come and crush us. The less we actually do the slower the time may pass. The last couple weeks we’ve had Sundays off and a …
It’s hard to believe that I can spend so much time thinking about how to be happy without actually being happy. We’re in therapy right now. I guess this comes with the necessary bout of defensiveness. Dealing with the assumptions running around in people’s heads about what could be wrong with us. I suppose there …
I do my best to get into routines. Meditation, exercise, waking at 6, drinking tea, stretching before bed, and making sure to always cross everything off my to-do list. This usually lasts about 5-8 days before the routine itself starts to feel like more things I have to do. At which time I lose motivation …
Alexis and I have gone on some amazing trips in our two years together. Hong Kong, Amsterdam, Paris, Columbia, Seattle, Portland, SF, Barcelona, and Cambodia. There might be more but I started to feel boastful. You can’t do anything without someone thinking something about it. That is why your intent is the only thing that …
I’ve got my new office setup. While Alexis was in LA for a dance workshop I redid the apartment. And filmed a commercial. And ran three photoshoots. And made Christmas lists. And ate like shit. And didn’t do any of the things that make me a happy person. I got hungry and then just didn’t …
– This old man is sitting in the corner staring at me. I think he wants to come sit at my table. I also think he might want to fight me. He just got up and walked past me and said hello. Three minutes later he walked back in and says hi to me like …
SUN 7.30.17 6:45am I was at a restaurant with Seeds people and they were going to screen my trailer then someone ordered the wrong thing and we all had to run out. Prior to that the hostess took forever to seat us and I was very upset. Two Asian girls just walked in and sat …
SAT 7.29.17 Self-esteem always improves when you share your reality with someone. – Colleen DeRango 5:06pm I’m eating frozen chicken, mashed potatoes, and corn from a gas station for dinner. The diner is closed and I’ve already exhausted The Dollar General’s grocery aisle. We just got back from a two hour ride where Lance almost …
Friday 7.28.17 7:47am People here have their dogs to bark at people who walk by. They are mostly outside, just animals. Not inside cuddling, eating organic dog food. Showing up on stories in their strange belly-up positions. They have a big bag of Kibble poured into a large trash bin and they get a scoop …
